Right, this is a confusing topic. I am on this border line, whether I am either disabled, off my head, completely bonkers or a threat to all married woman. I have had nothing but hassle for the last 2 years, now 3 years, from social, and they continuingly do so, even though I am 100% legally on my own. I can only guess why personally, would it be because either the job I do, someone's husband in social was eyeing me up or would it be that I wrote a letter a year ago to the head office and complained about our local jobcentre. I done everything legally, kept my head on correct line, as the guy in Inverness who deals with employment, made sure it was done correctly through the books. If anyone stays here locally, you all should know you got no chance of professional help in our jobcentre. This is the report, don't know if anything has changed from the last 2 years, since I went on my own. But this is the experience I have had in the past.
This is our local Jobcentre
I asked if I can study whilst unemployed, A locally: No, benefit will get stopped A from Inverness: Yes, as long as it is certain hours I asked if I can go self employed part time, A Locally: No, benefit will stop A from Inverness: Yes, it needs to be certain hours, and need to fill a certain form. I asked do you have any jobs in accounts A Locally: Don't know, look at computer A Locally Inverness: Well we have this that etc, and you can find your choice on the internet etc. Got a friend who I walked my dogs with, and she has doggie too. We mostly walk every evening. Her dad took a heart attack and ended up in Glasgow hospital, 104 miles away. Our Local job centre, would not accept form unless it was signed by him, who was 104 miles away in hospital unconscious. Or we got one year later, her dad was diagnosed with cancer. Our local jobcentre, handed a form for him to fill in and sign, and would not accept unless he has signed this form. Her dad could hardly feed himself never mind filling and signing a form. Or we got, her going in to ask for help to fill in this form for her dad, and all she got was, "Haven't got time, I'm just on lunch break". My advice "Go to Inverness". One year later, in May last year, her Dad, bless him, died of cancer. Her mum filled the form with Citizens Advice Bureau, and daughter handed it in. She got letter month later, owning big lots of money. They denied they received the form, until daughter went down, and pointed out it was her who handed it in, and CAB also got involved. Oh! Surprise! Surprise! They suddenly found the form. Never mind her mother nearly taken a stroke with the fright of the letter.  All of a sudden few weeks after the written complaint, I got nothing but hassle from them. This is me completely self employed, no job centre, no social involved, and they still continue to give hassle. DO YOU SEND ALL BENEFIT EMPLOYEES WITH IQ LESS THAN 10 LOCALLY?!!  But there is something in life I think is so surprising, is this. When I phone a company up and you may have noticed in my diary of 'Employees to Employers, I always hear "Doh! Don't know" Can you speak slower can't understand, so I need to speak like this C.A..N...... I...... S..P..E..A..K't..O't..H.E.. . .P.E..R'S.O.N...I.N... ..C..H..A..R..G.E (get my point) Well, it fits the brain gear. Or "How would I know", they dumbly reply Or if they can't be bothered they give the easiest answer they can think of, without looking into facts, as yes, no, don't know. Annoying when the yes maybe have been a no, and no should have been a yes.  But what surprises me so much in life is, a disabled person working for the company understands me perfectly well, they look at all facts, they try to help, and do what they are paid to do, if fact, I have no bother from any person who is disabled in a company. Maybe disabled people make more of an effort. Would the reasons be, that people who are disabled are either more intelligent, quicker or the other fact may be that Mr or Mrs Normal Joe Bloggs, is lazy, bone idle can't be bothered unintelligent employee. Or do they look at themselves and build themselves an empire building and forget what they are paid to do, or only bother with ones they feel inferior to. Or would it be that they take their personally feelings into work with them. Or maybe, as I said, on one of my diaries, they answer all questions to what was correct to the company and then the job is handed to them. Can a company not employ someone who can use their own initiative? What does the government expect me to do? Sit on my arse and feel sorry for myself, when I know if I got up, tried, mission can be accomplished. I have been studying for 5 years now, and received 3 A's, which surprised me. (Keep eyes on education). Since now my nasal passage has completely gone, due to hayfever,etc, not drugs. All my customers can understand me perfectly on the phone but I do sound as if I am suffering bad cold or I?m a junkie. If anyone mentions the nasal operation, forget it. I got it done 6 years ago, and it felt as if they took my brains out. Well, that's my excuse anyway. It was sore, they put a tampax up your nose after operation, and when you are conscious, they pull it out. Think the whole ward heard me screaming.  My sense of humour, past life times, has probably made me who I am. A complete 'Nutcase', I know, but it doesn't bother me, except when I am stressed. Just keep out of my way. As I say, life throw things at you, it's up to yourself how you deal with it. But I have to admit, I am a complete Nut job sometimes. I have asked the Doctor if you can get senile dementia at my age, he said no. I said, well I could be the first. He replied that people who are mad don't know it. So that means if I admit I am a complete nut job, it means I'm not, oh well, I'm alright then.  Ie: last night computer was not working, turned off, tried again, same thing happened, tried again, so I lost the plot, and now my computer has a dent up the top, the box where you turn off and on, has a bit dent, with the metal off at front. Whoops!!!! F*****************  What has surprised me more lately, this keyboard has lasted me longer than my last five have. Forgot to say, lifted my leg up on Saturday night, and booted the keyboard. But all ended well on Saturday night, the guy whom I fell out with lately was talking on the phone to me for an hour. All became relaxed and then the computer worked alright, maybe I'm just impatient. I actually completely believe its technology that causes most stress now days. Due to tension going up to this interview, my mobile was not getting any reception, and I was only 6 miles from Inverness. So I walloped it against the steering wheel, yes, guess what, the mobile broke in half. Felt good for a minute of two, but regret after, cost me money for new one. F*************  Constantly keep forgetting I left cooker on. Good example, is the computer on Saturday, forgot I had pot of potatoes on, whilst passing going to the bedroom, I smelt something burning. F*************.  Since I must be the only person in this world who wakes up every one to two hours every night, and remember every dream, some are frightening, just been talking to a herbalist and gave me some ointment. I get middle of the night, take dogs out, then notice in the morning I left a tap running, F***************** You men wonder why I am still single, no prizes for guessing, no prizes for guessing correct.. I only take tantrums in my house, I am not going to go down to computer shop and destroy all computers. Well, not yet anyway, give me time. I believe it might be happening shortly. Though I would love to smacka few people with a baseball bat, what can I say? Got to admit, the baseball bat job is getting very close. I believe in court I would be excused if I plead insanity. Any objections!!! Guess Not!!!  Make matters worse, due to the stress that day, everything went wrong on Friday, my key which was bent by customers many months ago, somehow did not get into the ignition. Then due to breaking the mobile on Wednesday, I could not ring mobile to find where it was. Friday and Saturday, computer went wonky and it added more stress. So I lost the plot, and when I loose the plot I completely loose it. This is not done in halves you know. It was the mobile, the computer, the key. Right at the end, I had a heavy thumping headache. If anyone has a baseball bat, axe, or sports hammer can I borrow, it might help. The amount of hassle I received at the start of this self employment company would shock you. I even had someone from social at my door, and this was when I became fully on my own.Would I get the same hassle if I was washing dishes or stacking shelves, it would be a different matter, but I know, they would have no dishes left in the sink. Looking at my cupboards, they would certainly get lower in stock with glasses. Stacking shelves, I would die of boredom and end up doing something really stupid, like lock manager out the door. I mean, do you want to pay for my osteopath, No! Didn't think so! Anybody want to pay for all my broken items? No, I didn't think so! Don't worry everyone, I haven't reached a private psychiatrist yet, give me time, I might need one soon! Anybody willing to pay for one? No! I didn't think so either! When I saw the Crippendales, which just made my day. I would love to see more actors, actresses, models with a disability. People with any diability, I think they are more intelligent that what we all are aware of. In fact I have read about many actors who admit, they suffer with depression, and does that mean they should sit on their arse and do nothing.
My biggest regret in life, is starting to late. I hope others learn from this, all you need is a bit of self confident, and hopefully build constantly through time. If you have been called abnormal, better than being normal, is it not?
Now 3 years self employed, and 2 years fully on my own. I am just keeping head above water.
ALWAYS LOOK ON THE POSITIVE SIDE OF LIFE, WELL TRY!!! IF THERE IS A WILL THERE IS A WAY. PEOPLE SHOULD BE GIVEN MORE SUPPORT AND MORE HELP, AND BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES. SO IF I BECOME RICH, OWN A BIG COMPANY, I WILL EMPLOYEE ONLY DISABLED PEOPLE, THEY ARE BRIGHT, INTELLIGENT AND A LOT MORE QUICKER AND COOPERATIVE!!!!
AH! BUT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ME AND THE "NORMAL", ADMITTING I'M ABNORMAL. IT'S CALLED HAVING YOUR BRAIN IN MORE GEARS THAN ONE. BUT AT LEAST MINE AIN'T IN FIRST!
SINCE STARTING THIS LETTER I HAVE PUNCHED MY KEYBOARD THINK LAST NUMBER COUNTED TO WAS 14.  |